I don't know what else I can say. I am the biggest piece of crap I know. I have been beaten down more than an human or animal can take. I have been belittled by family, friends, and strangers and I can't do it anymore. I have shed an ocean of tears. I can't cry anymore. Do you know how much I don't want to wake up in the morning? I wish someone would hear me. I don't know anything anymore.